dont think in a box. think more like a circle.

11.23.2002 :::

112302 had the weirdest dream lastnight.. damn seven eleven "conveniences." damnit i think i just need a damn booty call.

anyway. lastnight was fun stuff. well i went home afterschool and ate some sinigang. that was yummy. obs told me to come back afterschool (@2) to talk business. while on the way back.. recieved a phone call from ray. i was like. "whats going on... wait... why are you at home???" he said it was b/c he was too anxious about the bboy battle at odu later that night (and he slept at 5a and woke up at 1p.. tsk tsk). anyway. afterschool. talked some business with the O about an invitation (or trying to hook up) with ecasu at georgetown u in february. that is going to kick ass. after that.. took kristina eli and juanito with me and went to rays to pick his ass up to see what the plans are for the day. got a call from michele and to tell me to haul ass to her house to watch the sexy lawn workers. so stopped by mi's. that was a great view. anyway. everyone needed to go home before the battle, and i had to figure the ride arrangements. my car was going to be "full." so i dropped everyone off. in my car for later that night was supposedly: (alex) dana (michele) kristina and later my brother. so my car was full. went back to michele's after dropping off the load and chilled there for a hot minute. she said she'd just follow me to odu. so i stopped by home to tell my dad i was going to odu and got the thumbs up and i was off to pick up the load. when i got to kristinas, she said she wasnt able to go anymore. so i went to dana's to pick her ass up. got a call from ray when i was at dana's asking if i could fit him b/c his couldnt get his ride. so i said sure beans cuz now i only had dana in my car.. and there was always micheles car to fill now. so i picked up ray and randy. and made way to pick up josh and rayray. too bad when i got there they had just left. so.. we made our way to odu. things were going well until i decided to take city hall instead of brambleton and hit madd traffic. after we lost the traffic.. i missed my turn on st pauls b/c i was caught up in road rage so i took monticello to get back to st pauls. when i hit st pauls.. i took the wrong direction back onto brambleton b/c i wasnt used to taking that way and freaking ended up in chesapeake! or at least it said chesapeake city limits. i was like.. double you tea eff. so we made a u and hauled our way to odu. i knew everything didnt look right.. anyway. we got there and saw many familiar faces. but some faces should be left unfamiliar. ugh.

thanks to ray for playing the jealous game and michele for getting me out of there!

you guys are allstars.
anyway. the battle was effing awesome. except for those "hoochified 'allstar' girls" (the hoochie allstars.. not the real ones). showed love to ray rayray (one more round!) and randy. randy got madd props that night. the real allstar battle was crazy. got kinda upset at noob saibot for not giving props to roland. allstar bgirl battle was effing crazy. solstice was inspiring-- bgirls are the coolest. anyway. got pissed off at some people for being fuckers. i dont know. i got ticked off by alot of people lasnight. maybe it was just the atmosphere. thanks ray for pulling me out. i kept dana occupied from this guy named anton? i dont know. he kept hitting on her and she was fending for her life so i kept her busy. i think all of us were trying to avoid people. michele peaced out early due to a bad feeling and me and my resident black man steve a walked her to her car. after the battle ended. took ray rayray randy and dana went to mickey d's (b/c it was the only place open) for some guess what? darn right. some big n tasty's. got our orders and we didnt even realize that we were missing one big n tasty until we got to ray's. oh well. we'll complain later. anyway. dropped off the boys and dana came back to my house. we ate and watched a bug's life. through like the climax of it i started to fall asleep. well after the movie.. we were both tired. dana slept over and i had my weird dream. damn seven eleven 'convenience romances.' how does it go ray? deprived much? yep.

::: posted by charlene at 3:05:00 PM

11.21.2002 :::

i was cruisin around asianavenue.. when i came across the dumbest quote.

two cense: this is the dumbest quote:
Broken Influence: what?
two cense: .:.love is like eternal flame. it lasts forever...:.
two cense: .. i mean.. if it was an eternal piece of shit it would still be forever.
Broken Influence: hahahahahahahaha

oO. whoever put that on there thought they were soO deep.. lord. she's only like 14. its so funny to see people on asianavenue who are 12 and are all supposedly "so gangster" and about some pride and tYpiNG LiKe THiS. ugh. i mean yeah. i went through that too.. but i mean.. yeah. they shouldnt and theyll be all the cooler. ok. thats it.

::: posted by charlene at 9:28:00 PM

112102 so i chose my senior quotes. it took me an hour before i handed in my quote sheet.. but i did it. which ones did i choose? yes.. i said.. oneS with and s like "salinas." i did two. b/c im cool like that:

11.20.2002 :::

112002

quote of the day: "youre about as useful as a onelegged man at an arse kicking contest."
--rowan atkinson

anywhoo. im actually typing this because i am procrastinating on my physics pendulum lab. anyway. im stressing over my senior quote. i dont know which one to use.. to go with my usual (i believe to be) corny funny self.. or do the mushy yet true statement:

corny:
"i can't believe it! reading and writing actually paid off!"
-- the simpsons

mushy:
"anticipation is the purest form of pleasure.. things that happen invariably disappoint and the things that never will, never dim or fade."
-- flaubert
(the shortened version)

so im torn.. which to use.. which to use.. by the way.. quotes are due tomorrow.

what did i do today? well i was pretty much dead tired through all my classes. i fell asleep during calc.. sociology.. but was delirious in ap psych (first block). afterschool.. went to mickey dees for a big n tasty.. theyre tasty. but not big. oh well.. and ate at gabys. by 2 o clock rolled around.. i went back to school to retake my calc test. ugh. poo. anyway. but props and thanks angeline for the help. after that. i was actually alone in my car today.. that.. was soO weird. usually i have people packing in my backseat.. and it was

GASP!... empty.

anyway. went to bertos for a bit to check up on the zine and went home to start working on my lab.. worked on some of it on my comp.. then realized that quattro pro 4 sucks and that it would be hella easier if i had excel. ugh. anyway. procrastinated out of frustration and searched for senior quotes. then i had to leave for the international dinner because i wanted to watch the talent show. picked up kristina at bertos house at about 6 then went to the school. watched the talent show.. pretty entertaining. props to ray for being the allstar (stage hog.. jp), brian tajo for "being so darn sexy," and justine abais (even though i dont really know her) because she sings well. props to you all. got "stamped" mwahahahah.. too bad we couldnt eat anyway b/c we had to go to watch the singers at the pcc. so me ray and kristina left there at about 7 ish and went to the pcc. it was freakin packed exactly how a filipino party should be! cars were everywhere.. anyway. we got in and got inspired. they can sing!!! lord. wow. im still amazed. i was blown away. i still am. i think imma watch them again on monday. they were some good stuff. after that.. met up with jenny and tracy to go eat/starbucks. went to mcdonalds to pick myself up some big n tasty's then went to starbucks to meet up with j and t. left there b/c it was already 10 o clock and i had to get myself a goins home. took home kristina and ray. then came back here. now i am procrastinating my lab once again but now with this entry.. i think ill get back to it now.. and im still debating about my quote. decisions.. decisions..

::: posted by charlene at 11:46:00 PM

11.19.2002 :::

111902 got kinda pissed off today? why? because some people are inconsiderate assholes. for example.. i bumrushed home to pick up my camara so i could have it for the facs pics and whatnot.. and i had to be back at 1245 to take the maelstrom pics. so i get back to the school at like 1240 and im ready to go. too bad all the doors are locked. so i think.. no problem ill just knock til someone comes because there were still people in the commons going to and fro from the gym for pics. so im knocking.. and knocking.. and knocking.. and freaking no one is paying any attention!! i mean. i was knockin like a freakin mofo who needs a hit, nawm sayin? and i know people could hear me cuz i was bangin and people looked up at the door. i mean.. i even saw some maelstrom people (i dont know them) come toward me to open the door.. so i thought.. ok i wont miss the pic.. then the stupid fuckers just turned around and back to the gym! the least they could have done was open the door!!! so im knocking there getting pissed.. and i think it was ryan oltman who accompanied me in the knockins and finally holly comes and opens the door. bless her heart. too fuckin bad the maelstrom pics just got done. those inconsiderate fuckers who didnt open the door can kiss some drew carey juicy ass.

ugh.

anyway.. moving on. went took the facs pics. remember last year when we thought we were too big and had to take two pics?? well this time we had to take three. heezus. that went pretty well. made my announcement for the next meeting december 5 and told them about meeting the san tomas singers from the pi and their performance tomorrow night.

afterschool.. took dana ray kristina and eli to alex's house b/c we wanted to have the bang-a-rang gang come to the mall. we got there and while we were waiting for alex's decision to come.. we cleaned out my car. yep. that was alot of dust and leaves and crap to clean out. thanks you guys. anyway. alex didnt join us. he wasnt really in the mood to go out.. so we left for the mall (which will now be a regular "tuesday" event :)). met up michele there too. when we got there.. me and dana checked out pretzel plus to see if mystery man was working. he wasnt :(. vistited ron at work and he hooked it up with the berry extraordinaries. after that.. i looked for pants. walked around for a bit. got accompanied by someone ray eli barely knows.. then all of a sudden.. i couldnt find dana or kristina!! so i was searchin high and low.. and when i was heading to the escalators.. there was mystery man wearing his kb uniform. so i was like eek! and turned the other way. found dana and kris at pac sun and told dana that i found mystery man. we head back to pac sun so i could find a gift for my secret santa but then went to athletes foot. saw mystery man workin next door but then we decide to leave.. until eli ray and that random guy started playing x box and ps2. so then me and dana and kris chill out in that lil pit in front of kb with all the paintings and we start talkin about whatever. dana told me that the kb guy kept lookin at me but i think i "swimming in the nile." so then im accompanied by ray later on and we're all just chillin talking about random stuff then dana just picks me up (sorta) and randomly yells "IMMA DRAG OUT IN THERE DAMNIT TO GET HIS NUMBER!" so im like "what the fuck?" and then she starts dragging my by the foot and im like HAIL NO!! it was all semi embarassing (but not really??). i think it got his attention. so dana is like. "fine. im going in there myself and 'look for a gift'" who is then followed by kristina. i think they expected me to follow (maybe i should have and gotten the guys number) but ended up having a deep joints with ray. that was pretty fun. so then we had to go to the pcc to meet with the singers and we left the mall. but not before going to see if travis was working. we said bye to ron and he hooked it up with the funnel cake. mm hmm. anyway. left the mall.

met up jenny at the pcc with joe and uncle told us that the singers wouldnt arrive until 7. man. it was only like 515. so we went to b&n and planet music. at b&n this lady thought that b&n was like a freakin library and called out dana and eli for being loud and for lookin at the sex books. bitch. that was not her spot to regulate. i was already regulating damnit. that was not her spot. anyway. we bounced b&n and went to p/m. after that.. went back to the pcc and met up with the singers. ate. introduced ourselves. took everyone home. borrowed a cd from ray (good stuff). then went home.

when i got home. watched smallville. jonathan taylor thomas (JTT!!! just messin..) was a guest. i was all reminiscing on back in like fourth grade when everyone had a thing for him. he was one sexy simba and tom sawyer damnit. had a double dose of him tonite. anyway. i actually did some calculus during the commercials. i know. its a rare moment.

::: posted by charlene at 11:15:00 PM

revelation:

you know what? i miss my senior bunch. really i do. i mean yeah. i do enjoy my bang-a-rang gang and my usual suspects and the facs heads and my alumni. and they do make my world go round as well. but i miss my senior bunch. i mean. i miss hanging out with the crew and talking about class this and class that. and alot of times i feel left out. like. i dont know what goes on in most of their lives anymore.. and i remember when i was the mediator or that one theyd tell to keep it quiet. i mean. yeah. i try to add in whatever i can. but sometimes it feels like its not enough. and that im missing out with them. im so out of loop. i dont know. i heart you guys too.

ugh. and as the countdown to graduation continues.. i pray and dread the day. i mean. its almost december you guys. i mean for some we go back to fifth grade (sci club).. middle school.. freshmen.. even recent.. and even as babies (da hood). we've been through our trials and tribulations. laughter and tears. heartaches and breaks.. i will definately miss all of you guys... sounds like a grad speech right there. i swear.. i need to make one public. this is just a smidget.

i miss my

seniOr bunCh

111802 today was another day well spent with the usuals: ray onetwo and kristina. earlier i chilaxed with michele but she had to go to work. it was actually quite the tiring day. afterschool was really hectic b/c people had to pick up their passes for

facs club pics 1:10 in the gym.

yeah. after that i took kristina ray and onetwo and was accompanied later by michele to the tallwood meeting with jenny jason and karen. i was a pregnant druggie. why? i dont know. anyway. michele had to leave for work and after the meeting me ray onetwo and kristina went to *$s to see if we could write for mayplay. yeah. we know. its oh so many months away but we might as well start now yano? anyway. the lady there got pissed at us. (damn stupid bitches.. VENTI! not a tall.. goo law) anyway. we ordered the vanilla creme. it was good. came up with some good ideas. after that we chilled at kristinas where we spent the day. mostly we just goofed off. then i started craving some chinese food. so we went to tung hoi and we ordered that mess like they were groceries. came back and ate at kristinas and we ate.. then got tired.. damn triptophane. so we rested. then somehow ray ended up wearing some of kristinas designs and started modeling. then somehow me and ray ended up switching clothes. i dont know what came over us. guys clothes feel weird. havent crossdressed since san jose with the sac crew. that was fun. then we went upstairs to find some pants for ray to wear.. cuz he couldnt wear mine. theyd be too tight. but then just ended up looking at yearbooks and the old maelstrom of '97. them people were true artists. i think we just got inspired. after that. onetwo had to go home b/c it was already almost 830. so we left and i took the boys home. me and ray will have a surprise for thursday. that will be hilarious.

::: posted by charlene at 9:15:00 PM

11.17.2002 :::

111702 well as you can see. i updated like a mofo. i added pics (finally it works) and i added a new template. and no.. i didnt design this template (that would have been hot).. but i did add alot of tables so it could look more interesting. and as you can see.. i added some links and my xanga cult buddies. so there you go. im proud of my little investment here. peace out readers!

... i just realized: i spent the whole week with my
bang-a-rang gang.

::: posted by charlene at 11:43:00 PM

111702 yesterday..

was another fun filled day filled with the usuals: dana alex zach ray rayray and randy. the plan was to watch the ring for the 715p show. yeah. i know. i already watched it like last friday.. but oh well. since it was raining like a crazy mofo.. i couldnt drive and zachs mom picked me up then we headed to danas then to alexs and off to lynnhaven mall we went to see if anyone wanted to join us. we knew there was a bboy battle going on at aladdins castle so we knew that we'd see some familiar faces to ask to join us. we got there at seven.. so we ran up to ac to find some more people. who did we see there? steve ray rayray randy kim&honey brian a karess leshelle christian ed scott and more. ray rayray and randy left the bboy scene and joined us on our quest for fear. karess and leshelle wanted to join us too. but i think we lost them. its ok. me and dana made a stop at the inevitable "pretzel plus" and saw the hey. we found out that he also works at kb toys. thats too awesome. he saw us and gave us our high fives but he had to run. actually.. so did we. so we booked it to amc. we ran in the rain. and hit puddles.. that wasnt cool. too bad when me and dana looked behind us the guys were gone! its ok. we caught up to us. i just want to give a god bless to alicia cintron because she is an allstar! anyway. we got there around like 730 so the movie already started.. but it didnt hit the scary part yet so all was good. man. we couldnt find any seats so all of us just sat in the very front row.. man. at first our group had to break cuz there werent enough seats on either side (b/c this lady was "saving the seats") so it was alex dana me and ray then rayray randy and zach on the other side.. after the first part.. dana had a death grip on alex and screamed and randy hauled ass to our side and was followed by zach. rayray came over too but there werent enough seats so he stayed on the other side a bit longer.. then he later came to our side when the lady got up. mwahah. man. even though i already saw it.. i still had this death grip on dana and ray! it was because i knew when all the scary parts were.. they were still scary looking! ugh. damn those decomposed and molding faces..

after the movie.. alicia hooked it up. bless her. hope she didnt get in trouble. anyway.. we all went to zachs house b/c everyone was still scared and we wanted to watch something disney (but dana had to go home :(). when we got there was the birth of aim anonymous. why? b/c aim is depressing and evil. haha. then we watched the stories to thirteen ghosts. why? b/c rayray ray and me watched it lastnight and we wanted to know the stories. i know. not exactly a disney thing.. and it only made us more scared. damn that juggernaut and jackal. anyway. after that we went downstairs to watch hook and there began the bangarang gang: the lost boys and the lost girl consisting of the same members of aim anonymous: me zach ray rayray and randy. "you have to fly.. you have to fight.. you have to crow". bless that toodles. that was fun. bangarang! anyway. alex got a call from his mom so i asked what time it was b/c i had to be home before 12 and it was freaking 1230a! i noticed my phone was off and i was like shit. so i turn it on.. and right when i turned it on my dad called and he was pissed as a bitch. so i had to haul ass home.. i couldnt take alex home and i felt bad.. so i dropped him off at my stop sign at the end of my street and he said he'd walk. i still feel bad. i was worried about him. and i felt bad cuz i was supposed to take them all home but i had no idea that it was past twelve. so ray rayray and randy slept at zachs.

this morning

after i woke up and started playing some final fantasy tactics (which i have been neglecting) the doorbell rings and its ray rayray and randy dropping off some stuff i left at zachs. i offer them a ride home but they said theyd just walk to bertos. after i see them off.. i get back upstairs and i get another text from my "jerry". haha. and thats about it. i dont know if i have plans for today. dana wanted to do something but im trying to stay in so that my parents wont get pissed again. the jury is still out on my sentance..

::: posted by charlene at 3:27:00 PM